Showing posts with label murder. Show all posts
Showing posts with label murder. Show all posts

Thursday, 15 January 2015

A Poem a Day 2015 (15): His dark places (The Fall)

I'm still watching The Fall! Wasn't sure about the main character, but she's growing on me. Just watched episode 4 of series 1, and so my thoughts drift to him again and trying to fathom out that kind of psychology, which is pretty impossible. So, today's poem is about this. Cheers.

His darkest place

Deep inside the dark wood
Near an oft-running brook
Beneath the high boughs
Of an overarching tree
Sits a house on its own
Where he resides alone
Beside himself
Beside the echo

In dark places he dwells
Thriving on the lack
Of colour, heart and hope
Exhausted as these things are
Within his four walls
The mirror gives back enough
The lights too much

This is his place
Where he shares his secrets
With no one
Except her
She is his cruel vice
His darkest secret
Spun on a fantasy dreamt
Now spent
If only to relive itself

In this reality
He shifts between the walls
Like a ghost walking
A paper-thin character
Living with no resemblance
Sleeping like the dead
If only

But she knows
Carrying his darkest deeds
Locked in her head
The body bears the scars
How she yearns for a key
To escape into the light
She has not glimpsed for an age

He strides
Back and forth
Deep in thoughtless thought
His mind sweeping yet still
An empty space
Where empathy once dwelt
These floorboards creak
Crying out at his weight
Being the only sound here
Where the quiet stiffens

She knows
What it is to be silenced
Hearing steps above her head
The ever-present threat of him
Lost where she is
Sheltered, she waits
Dying by the day
His darkest secret
Enclosed beneath the boards
In the in between
A prison of the body and mind

She sinks
Not knowing whom she’ll meet
Either he or his other self
One who befriended her
One who betrayed her
Jagged is the heart
Of the one without
Shattered, she sits in darkness
Her fate long sealed
Still holding on
To the wisp of a hope
Plagued by the echo
Of his footsteps

copyright Vickie Johnstone

Tuesday, 13 January 2015

A Poem a Day 2015 (13): The Fall

Hi, I just watched episode one of The Fall. I'm a big fan of The Bridge and The Killing (original) with their strong female characters who are flawed and fascinating, so I have big expectations! Anyway, for today's poem my mind switched to murder most foul...

The Fall

Emotions sliver over
The mind skewered
Blood-red is the edge
Of reason snapped
Muddied footsteps walk
A clear conscience
Severed beyond thought
Clouded in this present
Where time stopped
Hours stream together
Seeping to an accord

A lock of dark hair twisted
A silver locket undusted

These prizes removed
Treasured like souvenirs
The cold eye observes
With detached interest
Rows of framed pictures
Oblivious to them all
Such memories have no use
In the still art he created
The body will lie constant
Undetected for days

Raw, spent anger
Leaves a life fractured
As he closes the door

copyright Vickie Johnstone

Tuesday, 1 April 2014

A Poem a Day (54): Blade

It's a dark one today. I imagined a murderer and what her motivation/past might be. Cheers.

Blade

I wonder in the moment how it fits,
The twisting of this knife in this flesh
That flits and squirms, seeking an escape,
Yet none will come in this foggy gloom
Where my anger shifts like a hurricane,
Sweeping all asunder in its desperation.

Pleading with my conscience so torn
It rips, and I listen to these cries in the dark.
Unhearing, unseeing, my reaction is all,
But I feel it not, so detached as I am.

In this space in time I try to wake myself,
Yet all is lost in this sinking maelstrom.
I cannot rise
Though I seek it,
Wish it as my mind breaks.

Filling the cracks the sticky blood sweeps,
Creating a pool of red to seize the grey.

I spy my reflection seeking to pull me in.

In my protest I stand, gripping the steel edge
That ravaged him here in the silencing
In less time than it took him to be born.

Now he is gone and only I remain,
The watcher,
Contemplating.

Here the darkness plunges,
Writhing with me, caressing me,
Exhausting me until I am but an empty cage,
Yet it is also my prison and here I must stay
Uninvited, unwanted, unmuted in my desire
To kill.

Brushing the knife along the edge of my shirt
I drift slowly away, the alleyway growing shorter.

I am deaf to the rush of traffic and people walking
Who know not what lies here, breathing his last.
I feel his eyes penetrating my back, my skin,
But I will not turn to look at him again, I cannot.
In knowing I will tear apart, sense it, know it.

Walking away is the only thing I know how to do well;
My speciality
Since I was a child,
Since he left me not a child.

The curiosity is too much and I glance back at him;
He who created me in the same degree of dark,
Wrenching away my innocence, abandoning me
With the remnants of my spirit ripped in tatters.

A smile curves itself upon my face in the still breeze;
The moment dives into the ground, rooting me down
Where blackness dances in this pitch heart of mine,
But my heart is his,
Dying where my father breathes his last,
Knowing it was me who extinguished his last sigh.


So our secret will finally die as I turn into the light.

copyright Vickie Johnstone

Thursday, 31 October 2013

6 poems for Halloween :)

Happy Halloween everyone! Here are some of my poems about aliens, haunted houses, ghosts, murder and all those spooky things... and the last one really happened. Have a fun night :)


UFO

A strange glow through my bedroom window
Woke me from my twilight dreaming
Rubbing my eyes I heaved on my slippers
Stumbling across the floor to glance outside

A yellow-green glow chased across the lawn
Dark shapes dotted all the lit spaces
Little green men with melon-shaped heads
Staggering with six arms and four stumpy legs

Heading towards me they wiggled as they walked
Tripping on stones and bobbing their faces
A dark green glow swimming among their heads
Carrying strange pointed objects I’ve never seen

Gripping the curtain I tried not to fall over
With laughter or fright, I’m really not sure
Not believing my eyes, I lay down to sleep
Swearing never to eat cheese before bed again


Nightmares


If I scream
Will it drown everything
That frightens me
In the silent dark?

Amputated limbs
Red scrawls of blood
Eight-legged freaks
Impenetrable mists

Running into infinity
With darkness chasing
Fast behind me, it
Comes closer, enveloping

Feet lose their grip
Bridges just give way
Falling in slow motion
Nothing passes through

My mind goes blank
Sinking through the air
The ground draws near
And I wake


Horror


Darkness stands behind me
Raging above in a bright
Inferno – let it fall,
Drown me in this sea
Of wrath, draining
In screams of muteness
Red blood dancing in streams
Smother me in this warmth
A passion that knows no end
But in the blackness of the dark
Words are silent


Footsteps in the rain


She walked into the path of oncoming traffic
Lights flashed her blind in the pitch darkness
Heading her way they swerved to the side
Their horns screeched like cats, radios blared
The night ached a thousand lived memories

She walked barefoot, her feet cut but soundless
Like a dreamer who had long ceased to dream
The stars glistened high above like fairy lights
Dazzling in the night sky, so quiet their beauty
Unravished by life, uncorrupted, so pure, fine

Her eyes squinted to improve their clarity
They shone so brilliantly, like ice against black
She had wandered far, not knowing the distance
Far, far, a long way from home and her people
Seated around a wooden table, food cooking

Amid warm smells of crisp, burning wintry heat
She could imagine them laughing and grinning
Their teeth glinting in the lights as they spoke
Blood dripping on their plates, their eyes red
Clawed fingernails gripping the edges so taut

Their wild hair flicked as they wailed and groaned
Enough! This she did not miss, could never miss
So now her escape was final, desolation dismissed
The blood could stay chilled and frozen like ice
Away from her, hidden in those dark, darkest eyes

Closing her eyelids, she flicked away the memory
The road was cold, the rain was starting again
Tap, tap, tap, the lights danced in the water
Her toes flicked little glistening drips into the air
She grinned at such a simple, honest thing

Memories of a life forgotten, once lived before
In the time long ago, in a time she lived once
The horns continued to sound, high-pitched wines
Too high, shattering the quiet of the still night
She turned her head to scowl, unseen in the dark

Determined, she walked on, oblivious to the cold
Heading towards the noisy, bustling flow of cars
She had no fear of them or their terrifying roar
They sounded their horns but they could not see her
Blinded as they were to the dead thing walking.


The dark wood

In the deepest depths of the dark wood
See the spectre trees stand and stare
Stretching out their bony fingers
To trip up weary wanderers who dare
Go freely into the unknown air.

In the deepest depths of the dark wood
Catch the ghostly moonlight crossings
Of the languid shapes that sink and shift
Floating endlessly in the speckled frosting
That lies in sheets on the muddy ground.

In the deepest depths of the dark wood
Hear the plaintiff wails of the ever lost
Stuck in time along the virgin paths
Caught in the lair of the unseen host
Who travels alone with his silent scream.

In the deepest depths of the dark wood
Keep your wits about you in the night shade
Lest you wander too far from the spectre trees
And find yourself far from the grassy glade
Beneath the ever-present smiling moon.


The haunted house (from a child's perspective)

At the end of the street
Where the road curves round
It sits and frowns
Seems to stare out loud

It’s the haunted house
But nobody knows
Except me

There’s a thing inside
But nobody knows
Except me

I don’t know what it looks like
As it’s never appeared
It just breathes
When no-one else is around

A dark, brooding sound
Unlike anything living
A deep breathing sound
That makes me still

I cannot move
When it appears
I cannot leave
When I want to run

It’s in the haunted house
But nobody knows
Except me

Sometimes I walk upstairs
And it stops me
Breathing silently
A shiver down my spine

Sometimes it waits for me
In my room at night
Behind the curtains bright
Waiting to scare me

I check under the bed
In the dark cupboard
That can hold three men
If it needed to

But I never see anything
And never find anything
It doesn’t want to show
Itself to anyone

It’s in the haunted house
But nobody knows
Except me

I tried to tell my mum
She didn’t want to believe
As she’s seen figures
Heard ghostly things

But there’s nothing here
She said to calm me down
There’s no-one here
Except you and me

One day it waited
Behind the front door
For me to come home
Waited so patiently

As I put my key in the lock
I could hear it breathe
From behind the door
Welcoming me

‘Happy to see you home’
It seemed to say
‘Come inside and play
With the unseen one’

So I stayed outside
Scared out of my wits
Playing with my keys
Til my mum came home

It’s the haunted house
But nobody knows
Except me.


Copyright Vickie Johnstone

These poems and others are contained in two of my poetry books, Travelling Light (free) and Kaleidoscope ($2.99/£1.99) 

Tuesday, 6 March 2012

Who's your fall guy?



Fall guys... ah, we all know of them. When I grew up watching Star Trek (my dad's fave) with William Shatner forever getting his shirt ripped diagonally (in the exact same place every time - was there just magic tape there?), I knew that whenever someone we didn't really know got to beam down to the spooky planet of the week, he wasn't coming back. No, sir. But it was ok because we never really got to know him, and sometimes this saved someone else's life and it was always much nicer than one of our heroes - Kirk, Spock or Bones - getting squished. 

I was thinking about this while watching an episode of the second series of The Walking Dead. How I love this show - it's my current addiction! Anyway, watching it last night, a character that I really liked got... well... how can I put it? He got dead-ed. Kaput. Blitzed. Squeeeeshed. Therefore this person (I won't give it away) won't be appearing again. I went to bed thinking oh nooooo! I liked this character. This character had personality. I'd gone through nearly two whole series with this person, sharing all of their laughter, sadness, struggles, battles with the yukky looking undeady people, seeing what they had for dinner... the whole kaboom. And now... well, you-know-who is kaboom!

But then, if you have a series and you keep bumping off the characters who viewers don't know so well or care too much about, after a while you're going to end up with the core characters - a tightly knit pack of people who you think will never part. Yep they're going to live forever. Damn it if your favourite character gets squeeeeshed - who are you going to be egging on thereafter? But if you end up with the character core of your story or series, who goes next? Makes me think of some kind of character roulette. Who's the odd one out? Eeeny meeny miney mo... Or would that character be chosen just because they are so well liked by readers/audience? All to get us weeping? What's the alternative? No, no, not Mr Spock. Don't let him be killed by the flying cheddar from outer space. Oh he's ok, let's just bump off the expendible characters... yeah!



Which got me to thinking... who's the fall guy in your book? Have you been bumping off your characters with more oomph than a hungry Vickie gobbles maltesers? Have you written a book where one of the main characters is going to meet a ghastly end just to shock or upset your reader? Or are you aiming to pull at the heartstrings so they don't forget the story? Many a book I've read has ended with the main character being snuffed out. Have I made tears at an ending? You bet. Ever since I read Hans Christian Andersen's stories. That poor little match girl and that even poorer little birdie up Nelson's Column (oo-er), and don't even get me started on Watership Down... that's bunnies! Cute bunnies! Bunnies!!! You can't do that to fluffies! Or is the character who gets it in your book the evil villain of the piece? And all deserving of his cruel end? Or are you penning a love story where you just know it's not going to end up with wedding cake? Then again, are you writing a mayhem-fuelled murder mystery where, let's face it, it's anyone's guess who's going to make it to the end or turn up in a stew. 

Or have you reached your core set of characters and you've got to choose who is going to go next? Are you sad? Will it be hard or are you cackling away with glee? Then again, will you take the rather cowardly, but nice way out and just get rid of one of the expendables? Who is your fall guy? 










Saturday, 25 February 2012

Indie book reviews: Double-take Tales by Donna Brown

I really enjoyed reading this trio of dark stories with wry humour and some unexpected twists.

First up is Round Trip, in which an unassuming little £5 note passes through the hands of an interesting mix of characters with different ways of thinking. Like some crazy relay race, this begins with Suzy Taylor. Will it bring good luck or bad? As you're reading, you wonder where the note will go next and if any of the characters will be linked by more than you're seeing at the time. This was my favourite story.

Next is Poison, about an abused and lonely wife who is tempted by the idea of bumping off her husband, who is allergic to nuts. Will she, won't she? I like the style of writing and how the viewpoint of the narrator sucks you in - "There is something about the slow, insidious nature of disappointment that is so damaging." The woman has begun to feel invisible in her husband's life and in her own. How will she go on?

Ending the trio is Ç'est La Vie, in which the police investigate a murder, watched by someone unknown. "They didn't find the body for three days. I know because I watched and waited." The character pulls you in straight away and you find yourself questioning who they are, what they want and what part they may have played. Fascinating study of emotion in relationships. I was totally surprised by the ending.
I read this collection on the train to work and recommend it. 
Where can you buy it? Here...
http://www.amazon.com/Double-take-Tales-ebook/dp/B006HTHAW4/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1330181115&sr=8-1