Sunday, 26 April 2015

RIP Mog, the most wondrous cat

Hi! I haven't posted for a couple of weeks. This April has been awful. I've had sciatica since the beginning of February and after 6 weeks it faded, only to retun a week later. This time around it was so bad that I couldn't walk further than my kitchen - if anyone gets this, I feel for you and hope it improves soon! I went back to work a week later still in pain and on painkillers that made me feel like I was underwater. It was a weird choice - bad pain or less pain but with a mind that felt like bubbly washing-up liquid and it took a lot to focus on anything at all. I'd go home and just want to crash = no writing.

To top it all, my beloved cat's illness got worse and I had to rush her to Wanstead Veterinary Hospital on Monday 20 April and she passed away the following day. In July, she would have been 16.

She was an amazing cat, a great companion and almost 'human'. I am missing her like crazy at the moment. Grief is a strange thing. It leaves a pit in your stomach that you can't fill and you have to wait until it fades. Unlike physical pain, it gnaws away and you feel helpless. The loss is indescribeable. The house feels very empty and very quiet. I think I can honestly say that I never felt lonely with Mog. I will write about her at some point or post a poem, but I can't at the moment. She was a wonderful, beautiful, amazing kitty with eccentricities and quirks, and a huge vocabulary.

RIP Mog (July 1999-April 2015)


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